My HeArT BrEaKs MeMoRy~

Come to think of it~

2011-05-25T00:10:00.000-07:00

Maybe i have the potential to become reptile, coz my hand temperature change to exactly rhe same temperature surround me.So how can i survive in this winters?!Even with my hand glove on it still not warm up,not a bit == And just somehow discovered that i have an allergic with medicine, this give me quite a big shock there.Actually i'm having a zinc sulphate allergic.How i'm discovered?At first i thought is coincidence of my a bit sore throat and my lip lightly dry.I thought i'm suffer from excessive internal heat and maybe the risk of getting cold so i take the cold & flu medicine.After took the medicine,i'm starting to feel like my throat are burning, my lip also dry like there gonna to chap.The worst is that is i'm feel like i having a little breathless,so i'm stand up from my bed and sitting infront of my lappie coz i know that i'm not getting sleep tonight. So end up that day i didn't sleep whole day, so i went to buy some Chinese herb and lozenge.After having those thing made me a bit better,so i got a sleep that night.So i think maybe i'm really suffer from the excessive internal heat that coz me can't sleep. So it gettingbetter and better until almost heal,i think maybe if i should took one more time of the cold & flu tablet to prevent myself from really get a cold. Then it started again...T-T So i go find out what content does this medicine contain. I saw Zinc Sulphate are stated, i quickly type on web to search for the symptom having allergic to this kind of chemical.Then i got my answer,that i maybe become one of the people who allergic to medicine.I have most of the symptom they mention.So i go make myself some Chinese Tea.According to my mother, she said when u wrongly taking the medicine, the best traditional way to get rid of the drug is drinking the Chinese tea or for more serious case like some people's face or eye will swollen just get a cotton wool dip with the Chinese tea and place on the swollen part, and it can subsidence of a swelling. So i drink 3 bottle of Chinese tea to get myself better.Hope all this will end tomorrow.
To be continue.....

Australia

2011-05-17T05:52:00.000-07:00

Heartbreaken trip...haha...no choice... I'm already so sick of it.So i gonna put it to an end.I'm gonna free you from me so i won't thinking u so much, like wasting my energy. I'm finding i'm so stupid for making myself believe that you will think me like i'm thinking of u. So i'm the fool that still holding to it and can't let go of it. Now i try to let go of u, though is heart broken but i think is quite good for both of us, don't u think so? So now i just need to put on my headphone let my heart sink to the bottom of the tokyo bay coz if u sink at there probably ppl won't find it. So just let me sink to the bottom and seal it until i met the right person then he/she know how to unseal, by the time I shall treasure the person.So wait until then maybe still need to wait for 8 yr....
so i can do it i can bear it,so i don't want a hide and seek lover. Even though we are no lover from the start, we just friend. I don't want to crush this good friendship so i just need to think positively. Somehow u so use to it even chime in with me what ever i do to u....haha Maybe i'm not so mature like u, so for a little kid to think too far is normal....haha...My mind simply ran off as I like them to. So for other if u not really interest with me,u just don't mess with me, if not u will bcome nothing to me even u r my closest friend.Maybe i need to find someone 7 years older than me as my partner?! So he or she will treasure me,they won't treat me like i'm nothing......Maybe i'm getting unsecure so much so easily.I'm just not look like my appearance so tough and rough.I have my own wound too, just i don't share with other, because i know so much better that others also have their own problem. Ok, I'm totally fine now, from the moment i publish this post all the thing and memories we share will get gone.

Job

2010-09-14T04:52:00.000-07:00

Currently quite stable, all the thing I can learn, i had already learn.
Just hope I will never become this stress.
After end of the job, I still need to cook and tidy my house.
Uncle Steven said I can bcome his God daughter, so good~~
Now i got God father liao~~wakakaka...
May be need to go over Singapore my senior told me yesterday.
Haha~I still can't get away with my fate~
Gambateh neh~

Tired,Boredom,Stupid,Restless....TBSR

2010-05-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

As the final get closer, my breath bcome more harder...
So much think i need to think abt it....
Tomorrow still need to go to the hospital...haha....
Everything come at the same time.....Mayb my wish finally come true.....
It is a good place for ppl to hv a rest....
away from fake ppl,noisy street,nagging parents and ppl who care abt me....
If u ask me , u want to die before me or i want to die before u.....
the answer will be i want u die before me....haha
i'm so cruel.....i hope i will bcome a real demon or evil or even vampires....
even sometime the devil may cry also......and not all the angel are good as their appearance...
not all the devil is bad as their appearance as well.....
recently have no song hear....so bored.....
hope tmr b better.....
And mayb u want come and fetch me.....but plz dun use the accident method.....mayb can use over dose sleeping pill method is much better....
I very miss u bro.....ur birthday is coming soon.....
i will bring ur favourite food to visit ur grave....wait for me and look forward.....
10 day before my birthday is ur birthday....how coincidence......

OMG!!!!! (@~@)

2009-10-11T08:28:00.000-07:00

Today i'm wake up quite early coz someone call me.....

But i dunno who izzit.....coz i hvn't get the phone the ringtone had stop....

Den i wash my face,brush teeth and told my maid to tidy my room.....

After drinking something i told my maid to help me to wash my car....

So we go to downstair and start to wask my car.....After washing,i'm polish my car...den finally i done all the thing....So i call my fren,May whether she is free or not...She tell me that she get food poison so cannot go out with me,i told her that i will go to her house...den i carry my laptop,my paper work ,my bag and went to her house after i'm pompom....Before i getting on car,my phone rang,i pick up the phone and she told me that can i help her to buy some food,i told her how abt i cook porridge for her she said that better....den i went back to the kitchen and get a few of ingredient...Finally i reach her house.i'm start working on my laptop to show her what i get from my cousin.....After that i receive a call from my parent,they ask me to go fetch them,so after i had cook the porridge i left her house and go to fetch my parent....We went to shopping at the Zon....I bought a grey colour jacket and my daddy bought a t-shirt and underwear....

My mum bought an underwear for my bro....Den we go had our dinner b4 we headed to home.....

When i reach home i went to a nearby grocery to chat with my fren...and i went to bside of the shop is a phone shop i ask something from them and i reload my phone's credit...Suddenly my phone rang,my bro call me....He ask me to borrow my car to him but i told him that i juz refill the fuel and i juz wash my car!!!!Den i ask him isn't that u hv ur own car he said he want to help his fren to move......i told him how come i need to lend my car to u,i wash it this morning to let u to carry others thing like bed and others.....I say i dun want to lend him......but he told me to lend him.....I dunno why i so stupid i really drove there for him to let him use my car......I very hate myself more than hate him!!!!why i' m so stupid?!Haiz~~~

Yesterday ($o$)

2009-10-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday the trial exam had finally end....

So happy that the exam is end,but i'm pretty sure that my econ result will better than my acc result...HAHA~~~

After the exam me,veron,Bibi we go to CS together....

The final purpose is going there to sing karaoke at Neway....

we spent abt 3~4 hr at there....

Now we can change our snack to food or drink not neccessary need to hv something make us feel more thirsty during the singing time....

So we change it into ''Gyoza''&''Fried chicken roll''...

and we order drink, for me i'm order ''Fairy Tale'',

Veron order''Pineapple Ice''

Bibi order''Rascal''.....

Den we start singing the song we choose....

i forget which song we choose and i change the lyric den they laugh....

after my turn,they do the same and i laugh until can't continue to sing it...

Is very enjoy when u go out with someone u hv same topic with and even we dun hv the same topic we will try to find some topic to discuss....

For me i'm usually that one who very funny and crazy all the time...

Is true that i got many faces they dunno,but that they see is what naturelly i am....

I'm not usually let ppl walk in to my heart coz i dun want to get hurt....

is truth that i hv the thought that is better i hurt ppl than ppl hurt me,but i'm not the type hurt ppl all the way,i'm juz try to keep myself away from others...

i hv many fren,but i dun really close to them,i only keep a certain distance from them,no matter wat type of ppl are they....

Ppl even dun believe i hv soke b4,coz they seeing my act during some stranger smoking bside me.....But is truth that i hv smoke b4,but after a certain time i start feeling that smoke hv a disgust smell....

So i stop it,even some time i will try to stop my fren who r smoking bside me to stop it untill i leave....pretty selfish isn't i?!

After we sing,we go to take photo....

den we back to home.....

Taxi driver....(X~X)

2009-10-07T05:13:00.000-07:00

Today i bcame my mum's taxi driver.....

Drive to TUTA den drive back home....

After today i really felt i suddenly bcame my parents maid....haha!!!

mayb my culinary is better....

so they ask me to cook Korean's Ramen for them....

So i went to kitchen and cook for them...

They begin to start their conversation:

Mum:I tell u,ur daughter ia blur king(Big Sotong),u know?!

Juz now she gave ppl 100 buckt without getting the receipt!!!!

Nearly ur 100 buckt will fly away.....

Dad: REALLY?!Next time i won't ask her to buy something for me....

i'm afraid she will do sumthing same as today....

Me: U all thought i'm die or deaf?I can hear wat u 2 r talking abt!!!

Mum & Dad : We know that u can hear wat i'm saying.Not we thought u r die or deaf.

We one u to know that dun do the same mistake again....

Me: @#¬!"£$%&~

After hv the korean ramen,i send them to The Zon to take the ship to Tanjung Pinang...

They will go there for 2-4day,i dunno....

i need to take care myself this few day...

Nvm i'm strong....HAHA!!!

Trial exam (~.~)

2009-10-06T08:11:00.000-07:00

Now left the last subject for my trial exam----->econ

yesterday i take account part A 's exam den i after the exam i'm very sure that my account result will very very bad....

i dunno why every time my balance sheet,income statement cannot balance!!!!!

maybe i should give up this subject....

But i think other than this subject also will come out with the very very bad result...haha!!

coz before the exam i didn't study anything and i 'm reading the manga....

recently i love to hear pushplay's song....

Not bad...but some of their song rythm not suit with my style.....

Perhaps i can absorb the econ point more,so my econ mark will pass....

after the econ test is friday.That day originally dun need to go coz that day i din hv any exam,but Ms Geeta said there gonna hv a replace class for MS about 3 hrs....(=.='')

so i need to go there abt 1pm....

Today my cousin ask me if there any fren want to find someone to help them to do assignment juz pay her RM50 per assignment....

I told her is that u really need money at the moment?!

she said no lar!Juz let other bcome more convienience....

sad~

2009-08-17T09:09:00.000-07:00

Today i felt very sad at the end of the day......
bcoz juz now when i reach home i get scold by my mum....
haha....coz she said he get scold by my dad,she ask me y u din go to check the house is u still going like that i will sell the house.....In my heart i say to myself is this house only mine?u & ur husband won't live in?how abt bro?Y my bro so useless?
all the thing need me to do,if i know from the begin i will not study that much.....
haha......
After that,my dad come back.....
i 'm watching the drama in his room,he suddenly came in....
and ask can u drive me to buy something?
i say ok coz he told me that mum is very tired.....
than i drive him to UTM......
i put him down and i wait for him on the car.....
is taking quite long of time.....
from the begining there is no car at the behind of my car.
after i saw my dad,in front of me got car so i let my car reverse....
suddenly a small sound come out,i know what happening.....
my car the back side is crushing other car......
i let my dad get in and then he said u din heard i shout at u meh?
how come ppl can hear something from outside when u is inside the car.....
den nvm i juz drove away.....on the return road he starting to nagg at me,i din bother coz i cannot
talk back to him.....after that we reach to a u shape tunnel,that place is quite difficult for me to get out,but smoothly i get out from there,after the tunnel i need to cross to the lefter side than my dad get angry coz i drive very worst......
but he didn't think that my license hvn't reach 1 year not even 3 month ler!!!!!
so i juz keep quite and drive until my home.......

Stress....

2009-08-12T08:47:00.000-07:00

haiz.....very stress ar tomorrow got econ test......
hvn't study,but dun want study.....haha
so, no need to wait until tomorrow ialready know my result....
anyway today i feel i hv been bully by others lor....haha
somebody make me almost wasting the food....
coz today 6 of us go out for our lunch (laksa),they suddenly ask us hv u all saw the movie trailer b4 for the recent movie.den they say u look like the character in the movie....
after they say this,i almost .....my food on the table....
den they start saying something nonsen....haiz i nv though that i will bully by ppl once.....
coz i always be the one who bully ppl...haha
after the laksa we go to eat pisang goreng...
but actually i dun eat pisang goreng....haha
coz the feel when u put in the mouth like biting something like durian.....=.=''
so no matter they how to persuade me to hv it but i can't eat....haha
i dunno why when i see to many food on the table i getting feel like i'm gonna vonit liao....
haha~~~

Red box~

2009-08-09T09:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday my cousin and me go to jusco.
we choose some present for her sibling.
My cousin is Indonesian,but is a very cute and kind person...
the cute mean she is very chibbi...
After finish the ''choosing'' program i told her that let go to Redbox....
LUckyly without booking,we get a room for juz 2 of us....
But after we enter the room,i get shock.....How come every time when there is juz two ppl den they give us a room for 10 ppl?!
nvm....coz i'm not going to ask them to switch our room with other...
i order ''beauty and the beat'' & ''Lion King'' for the beverage....
not bad for those who like to drink a beverage which is contain abit of alcohol....

''Beauty and The Beast''
Ingredient : Ribena + Beer + Jelly +
a little bit Orange Juice

''Lion King''
Ingredient : Beer + Lemon juice(a bit) +
Longan + blue color syrup + soda

T.T~

2009-08-07T09:46:00.000-07:00

Today mood is a little bit unstable.....but i finally get my own key....what key is this?!(secret)

but there many homework now....

acc got many,

econ got many,

MS need to research,

english need to present.......

sad ar~~~why must study come with homework?!

but recently i have a new hobby......

that is kidnapped my kitten and let the kitten sleep beside me....

bcoz of the kitten,i can fall sleep in within second.....

haha~~~

another thing is now i'm playing the Amatuer Surgeon & Guitar Geek....

Is very fun,but for normal gal will think a bit bloody~~hehe~

Quite fun lar....And now still chasing the drama.....

next thursday econ hv test......need to study hard liao~